SteveNOTsolostandlonelyinlondon

How it is. Occassional thoughts, occassional moments, from a London gay man... 'A perfect day, a perfect night..' If only... I`m all fingers 'n' thumbs...

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Monday, July 25, 2005

ok so it`s more lyrics, but due to what seems current events this seems particularly appropriate...

Tears For Fears -` Shout`

Shout
Shout

Let it all out
These are things I can do without
Come On
I'm talking to you
Come on

In violent times
You shouldn't have to sell your soul
In black and white
They really really ought to know
Those one track minds
That took you for a working boy
Kiss them goodbye
You shouldn't have to jump for joy

Shout

They gave you life
And in return you gave them them hell
As cold as ice I hope we live to tell the tale

Shout

And when you've taken down your guard
If I could change your mind
I'd really love to break your heart

Shout

See what the title says

kiss

S x

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Sylvian emotion

The Boy with the Gun

He knows well his wicked ways
A course of bitterness
A grudge held from his childhood days
As if life had loved him less
Reading down his list of names
He ticks them one by one
He points the barrel at the sky
Firing shots off at the sun

”I’m the law and I am the king, I am the wisdom, listen to me sing”

He carves out the victim’s names
In the wooden butt of the gun
He leans well back against the tree
He knows his kingdome’s come
He’ll breathe a sigh self satisfied
The work is in good hands
He shoots the coins into the air
And follows where the money lands

”I’m the law and I am the king, I am the wisdom, listen to me sing``

He pauses at the city’s edge
Of hellfire and of stone
He summons up the devil there
To give him courage of his own
He’ll free the sinners of deceit
They’ll hear his name and run
His justice is his own reward
Measured out beneath the sun

”I’m the law and I am the king, I am the wisdom, listen to me sing”

And my name’s on the gun
The work is just began
By the boy with the gun

Forbidden Colours

The wounds on your hand never seem to heal
I thought all I needed was to believe

Here am I, a lifetime away from you ?
The blood of Christ or the beat of my heart
My love wears forbidden colours
My life believes

Senseless years thunder by
Millions are willing to give their lives for you
Does nothing live on ?

Learning to cope with feelings aroused in me
My hands in the soil, buried inside myself
My love wears forbidden colours
My life believes in you once again

I’ll go walking in circles
While doubting the very ground beneath me
Trying to show unquestioning faith in everything
Here am I, a lifetime away from you ?
The blood of Christ, or a change of heart

My love wears forbidden colours
My life believes
My love wears forbidden colours
My life believes in you once again

Orpheus

Standing firm on this stoney ground
The wind blows hard
Pulls these clothes around
I harbour all the same worries as most
The temptations to leave or to give up the ghost
I wrestle with an outlook on life
That shifts between darkness and shadowy light
I struggle with words for fear that they’ll hear
But Orpheus sleeps on his back still dead to the world

Sunlight falls, my wings open wide
There’s a beauty here I cannot deny
And bottles that tumble and crash on the stairs
Are just so many people I knew never cared
Down below on the wreck on the ship
Are a stronghold of pleasures I couldn’t regret
But the baggage is swallowed up by the tide
As Orpheus keeps to his promise and stays by my side

Tell me, I’ve still a lot to learn
Understand, these fires never stop
Believe me, when this joker is tired of laughing
I will hear the promise of my Orpheus sing

Sleepers sleep as we row the boat
Just you the weather and I gave up hope
But all of the hurdles that fell in our laps
Were fuel for the fire and straw for our backs
Still the voices have stories to tell
Of the power struggles in heaven and hell
But we feel secure against such mighty dreams
As Orpheus sings of the promise tomorrow may bring

Tell me, I’ve still a lot to learn
Understand, these fires never stop
Please believe me, when this joker is tired of laughing
I will hear the promise of my Orpheus sing...


3 songs from David Sylvian (Japan) and his most hauntingly beautiful solo album `Secrets of the Beehive`. I have had this cd for many years and these songs have always evoked strong emotions for me, hence the annotation.

S x

Thursday, July 07, 2005

today 07.07.05

.....

LONDON MAYOR KEN LIVINGSTONE
`.....This was not a terrorist attack against the mighty and the powerful.
It was not aimed at presidents or prime ministers. It was aimed at ordinary working-class Londoners, black and white, Muslim and Christian, Hindu and Jew, young and old.
Indiscriminate slaughter irrespective of any consideration for age, class, religion, whatever.
That isn't an ideology. It isn't even a perverted faith. It is just an indiscriminate attempt at mass murder. `

PRIME MINISTER TONY BLAIR
`It is important... that those engaged in terrorism realise that our determination to defend our values and our way of life is greater than their determination to cause death and destruction to innocent people in a desire impose extremism on the world.
Whatever they do it is our determination that they will never succeed in destroying what we hold dear in this country and in other civilised nations throughout the world. `

CHIEF RABBI JONATHAN SACKS
`These terrible events have brought home to us the full evil that terror represents.
It is not the weapon of the weak against the strong but the rage of the angry against the defenceless and innocent. It is an evil means to an evil end. `

SIR IQBAL SACRANIE, SECRETARY GENERAL OF THE MUSLIM COUNCIL OF GREAT BRITAIN
`What we need to be aware is the terrorists, these evil people who have carried out this series of explosions in London, want to demoralise us as a nation and divide us as a people.
All of us must unite in helping the police to hunt these murderers down.
I think, yesterday, we celebrated as Londoners the euphoria that our great city had secured the Olympic Games.
Today, we watch aghast as we witness a series of brutal attacks upon our capital city. I think we were together in our celebrations and we must remain together in our time of crisis. `


RESPECT MP GEORGE GALLOWAY
`We argued... that the attacks on Afghanistan and Iraq would increase the threat of terrorist attack in Britain. Tragically Londoners have now paid the price of the Government ignoring such warnings. `

RAMESH KALLIDAI, SECRETARY GENERAL OF THE HINDU FORUM OF GREAT BRITAIN
`Britain is a good example of a multi-cultural society where all faith communities have been living together peacefully. It is now more important than ever to ensure that we do not succumb to terrorism by allowing ourselves to be divided. `

European Commission President Jose Manuel Barroso

`It's absurd, those criminal attacks against innocent people that have nothing to do with the problems that are raised by the terrorists.
This criminal act [is] not only against Britain, against the British people but against all civilised people in the world that do not tolerate these kind of crimes.
All of us from President Chirac to the president of China expressed sympathy to Tony Blair and Britain. There is a strong consensus on the need to defend our values. `

News website reader Scott Wenbourne was on the train travelling in to Aldgate station when there was an explosion in the carriage in front of him.

`It was about 8.50am when it happened. I was one carriage down from where it happened and had my back to the carriage door.
All of a sudden there was a loud bang and a flash of bright light. It threw me to the floor in the middle of the train.
At first some people thought it wasn't serious, perhaps just a minor derailment, although some people were screaming.
But straight away, as soon I hit the floor my first thought was "it's a bomb", although I can't be sure.
It all happened in slow motion, I thought the windows would blow through.
Carriage 'ripped apart'
One of the train staff came along and said that we had hit something but that there was no need to panic.
We got off at the back end of the train and they walked us towards Aldgate station.
As we walked up past the carriage we saw debris and torn metal. I noticed the carriage was completely ripped apart on one side.
I saw three bodies on the track. I couldn't look, it was so horrific. I think one was moving but I'm not too sure.
There were also, I think, some bodies in the carriage, some were moving but I couldn't really look. No-one was attending to them.
We walked to the platform, which took about half an hour as there were so many of us, after all it was rush hour.
There were police at the platform and some of the injured were tended to.
Many people had black faces, bleeding from parts all over their bodies. Nobody seemed to have anything too horrific, they all seemed to be conscious.
As soon as I got out the station I phoned my mum to tell her I was OK. Someone from work called as well. I just stood around for a bit trying to take in what happened.
When I got to work one girl said she was just getting off the train at Liverpool Street when she felt the whole building rock.
We've been told at work to stay in the building, pull the blinds down and keep away from the windows......`

Comments - London, Thursday 7th July 2005.....

S x

Monday, July 04, 2005

UK Gay Pride 2005

Well,

That was a bit of a week and a bit! I am somewhat weary, but it was a super giggle :)
It was especially lovely to see me dear Kristof, who always manages to come over from Budapest at just the right time to cheer me up and make me feel human ~Aww bless~ He is my total luv :) He went back Saturday :(
Saturday was also GayPride UK, in London. It was admittedly a little lacklustre, but then Live8 was the same day...I attended with my gorgeous Ali, she is the perfect fag hag, albeit a rather attractive one. It was lovely, we have been friends now 30 years, since we were both toddlers almost and due to her living in India (Chennai), i haven`t had her to myself. We trolled together onwards at Waterloo stn where she met me, to the rally in the square where there were speeches, Ian McKellen looked rather tiny, but nevertheless nice. Then we went to a few bars in old Compton st. Lots of cuties abounding of course. Ali and i basically got a little pissed and had a really lovely laugh, someone spilt red wine all over the back of me gorgeous powder blue shirt, so thats that into the bin. Bumped into a friend, Peter who is loads of fun...an ex from 1995 (Hi Chris :) (!!!!!) and my Deputy manager from work who was fabulously pissed and more. Hung around until closing then met up again with Peter to hit the club, this time Shinky Shonky. Absolutely loved it, Boogaloo Stu was hysterical (`Hello Motherfuckers!`) and the music was cool (they even played The Killers - ta Albert Twatlock!). And only a fiver, very good stuff!
Sunday was lovely too, chillin` and stuff, watching `Close Encounters..` etc and having food. London CAN be good in the right company ;)
Popped in the evening for a brief meet up with Ali (recountings the previous days adventures a la Pride! Giggle..), Mands and Rob in The Red Lion then drifted away to sleep...yawn...
:)

S x

Saturday, July 02, 2005

Jumpin Jack Flash, it`s a hash, hash, hash...

Hmmm,

Not good, but ok.
Why does June Always provoke such adverse feelings 4 me? i will never quite know...
It hasn`t been a terrible week, just a little bit of a dissapointing one..hey ho.
Though i have had some fun..u know who u r
:)

S x

Friday, July 01, 2005

The New VirginRail Ad...

Love train

AD BREAKDOWN

'Will you quit stalling? We're going to miss the train'

THE PRODUCT: Virgin Trains

THE BRIEF: Make people forget how grim train travel has often been in recent years. Instead, inspire them with a bit of good old-fashioned romance.

WHAT'S GOING ON: As one of Virgin's new Pendolino trains powers through the English countryside, the Railway Children race down to the fence to see the "big dragon tearing by".
On board, modern day "customers" mingle with living, breathing icons of the golden age of the train.
Margaret Lockwood and May Witty order a pot of tea, asking the waiter to make sure the water's boiling. Cary Grant tries to chat up Eva Marie Saint. And (rather strangely, since the train has already been racing through the fields) Tony Curtis and Jack Lemmon hobble down a Euston platform in high heels and make it on to the train just in time.
The advert - a full minute long - reaches its climax (to the kind of orchestral soundtrack one might expect from a Hollywood epic) with Cary Grant declaring: "Beats flying, doesn't it."

CAST LIST
Tony Curtis and Jack Lemmon - Some Like it Hot
May Witty and Margaret Lockwood - The Lady Vanishes
Albert Finney Martin Balsam - Murder on the Orient Express
Sir John Mills - In Which We Serve
Jenny Agutter, Sally Thomsett and Gary Warren - The Railway Children
Cary Grant and Eva Marie Saint - North by North West

A strange message, perhaps, to come from the House of Branson. But the atmosphere created by this advert is so seductive that the experience of post-Hatfield speed restrictions, delays and overcrowding, seems a world away. By linking the train experience with flying, it's almost as if the most realistic alternative to rail (driving) is not even considered.
"The whole brief was to reinvent the romance and passion of train travel," says Helen Kimber of ad agency Rainey Kelly Campbell Roalfe/Y&R, which created the advert.
Keith Lovegrove, author of Railway: Identity, Design and Culture, is in no doubt that the brief has been fulfilled.

Cover is blown

"This advert works on so many levels," he says. "It successfully suggests that travelling by train is once again fashionable. There's a subliminal message that there's a chance of an encounter with a celebrity on board, but there are various nods too to British culture - for example the two girls nudging each other as Cary Grant is chatting up Eva Marie Saint."
This is not, Lovegrove says, a new theme in advertising. He points to a 1938 advert for classic US modernist train, the 20th Century Limited, which said a visit to the bar lounge is "an experience akin to being a guest in a famous and exclusive club, for rarely does the Century move without a quorum of internationally-known people on board".
It's the combination of the old films with the modern which impresses Lovegrove most, however, as well as the way characters from two Hitchcock films meet in the corridor.
The care taken in production means this is one of those adverts which repays repeated watching. "When Tony Curtis is on the train, there's a cover of Hello! Magazine in a rack behind him with a picture of Curtis himself on it, with the headline "Life's a Drag". Little touches like that make it watchable again and again."
Helen Kimber agrees that the key to the advert's success is the trouble taken in "post production", ie the work done with computers and editing after the filming has taken place, and where the ancient is merged with the modern.

Countryside adds to air of drama

The previous Ad Breakdown article on the VW Golf "Singin in the rain" advert gave a taste of how this is done - in the Virgin case this work (by Ludo Fealey at Glassworks) took three months - the time an average advert takes to make from beginning to end. His tasks included such things as matching the shadows on the new and old actors' faces, and reflecting the film actors in the modern props and windows.
The music, composed by James Brett who was the assistant musical director of the Party in the Palace at the Queen's Golden Jubilee, and recorded with the 62-piece London Metropolitan Orchestra, deserves special mention for the way it supports the mood of a John Williams Hollywood epic.
Behind the scenes there was much toil too, particularly for those involved in obtaining permission from the studios which own the original films, and in the case of actors such as Cary Grant who have died, getting agreement from their families.
In some respects this advert may become a classic, to rank alongside the BR promotional films and the 1980s British Rail "Relax" advert in which even the Penguin in the logo on a passenger's book dozes.
The central idea is not in itself new - not just in the way that Keith Lovegrove points out, but in the merging of new and old. Anyone remember Griff Rhys Jones and Holsten Pils, for example? But when so much love and attention has obviously been lavished on something, this scarcely matters.

COMMENTS.

Ad Breakdown refers to the 'classic' BR Relax ad, but all this did was highlight the vast difference between the ad and the awful experience of actually travelling by train. This Virgin ad makes exactly the same mistake. I had the misfortune to travel by Virgin last week and the misery of the journey when compared with the ad is indescribable. Show cramped seating, screaming children and executives yelling into their mobile phones and you'll be closer to the real rail experience.
Jane, Botley, Hampshire

I though the ad was brilliant!
Mark Richards, Nottingham

I absolutely cannot fault this very well crafted short film. Unfortunately, it doesn't work as an advert, because it is rather let down by the reality it promises to deliver. If only the trains in the UK were really this nice! It is a fantasy film therefore, to be enjoyed on only that level, and not to be regarded as reflecting the reality of train travel in the UK today anymore than "The Lord of the Rings" films reflected the reality of life in New Zealand.
Rob, London, UK

S X